wrote a long paragraph but it can just be summed up with my dad sucks and is always mad and shitting on any joy that comes into my life. like he just gets mad when good shit happens to me, tries to turn it into something bad … and it’s so weird but not surprising bc he’s a Man.
7th house and Descendant, “Don’t ask me why I am this way. Look inside and ask yourself why this is the way that you see me” our 7th house sign (across from the ascendant) is an inner mirror that people see their own image through, the personalities and qualities that rise when the sun sets, and because they have not integrated these personalities or qualities its assumed they all belong to you
aries rising: can be subject to substantial injustices and disempowerment by law, other people may come to associate the individual with groups and people known for shadowy reputations, this may result in being subject to automatic assumptions of guilt or wrongdoing despite their innocence
taurus rising: relationship partners have a tendency of bringing out the absolute best and worst in the individual, it’s also because people can unconsciously approach them to fight old demons they haven’t faced yet, and therefore at the same time see images of those who have hurt or betrayed them in the past through the individual. it leaves no relationship free from storms
gemini rising: can confront a lot of unsubstantiated suspicion regarding their motives - people can wrongly and routinely believe that the individual is hiding or avoiding something, the individual can be a primary witness of other people’s ‘split’ or ‘alter ego’ personality and catch glimpses of darkness and projection that nobody else does
cancer rising: the individual can be the subject of excessive expectation and get blamed for errors or events that were completely out of their control. they can attract a lot of people who are very emotionally unexpressive and distant who seem to find the ways out getting an emotional reaction from the individual
leo rising: can confront a lot of unsubstantiated judgement and envy, other people can assume that they are much more confident and fortunate than they are, they can be wrongly shifted blame or cause for other people’s failures to follow and reach their own aspirations, it’s possible that the heart is very exposed to hurt because pouring it all out can have a way of changing lovers into friends
virgo rising: can be a sounding board who is seen as an anchor or rescuer, people can assume that they know all the answers and idealise them in this regard, so the individual can feel very bound and unable to reach out to anybody for help, sometimes people come to find somebody who is lost themselves
libra rising: can become the reflective mixture of in the image of people’s lost loves, past relationships, and broken hearts, so you can imagine that this makes most human connections quite unpredictable and intense. they may be the subject of excessive questioning regarding their motives and find themselves in the middle of a conflict they never wanted to start
scorpio rising: can be subject to over dependency and having excessive responsibilities placed on them that the individual may not truly value such as financially, the work they do, or be easily exploited by other people for their resources, appearance, or talents
sagittarius rising: can be subject to or conflict due to miscommunication or being misinterpreted by others, they may find that people have a habit of ‘hearing what they want to hear’ instead of the individual’s words and be a primary witness of other people’s ‘split’ or ‘alter ego’ personality and catch glimpses of darkness and projection that nobody else does
capricorn rising: a resting and redemption place for the inner children that have been abandoned, wounded, or compromised by the mother or mother figure in their life, people find it very easy to attach to the person and become quite dependant on them to continue meeting unresolved childhood needs
aquarius rising: could sacrifice their heart and soul to humanity until they burned to nothing and people would still remark the individual as being ‘selfish’, ‘self-centred’ or whatever adjective that seems to completely diminish the concern they have and express to others. they may also find themselves in the position of ‘relationship counselling’ people they desire to be in a relationship with themselves
pisces rising: their emotional experiences and psychological troubles can be routinely dismissed or invalidated, they may suffer excessive unsubstantiated criticism or frustration from other people - especially in regards to ‘getting their life together’ as a remedy for repairing their sicknesses and troubles
I’ve read a lot of books this year and deciding on my favourites overall was too overwhelming so instead here are some of my favourites that were published in 2018, plus a link to the Goodreads page of each if you’d like to read a summary!
ac/22 hell baby frm hell & retired poet """crazy""" ""unstable""
